Every morning when I wake up to pray Fajr*, I thank God for guiding me to Islam. Alhamdulillah**. My heart is filled with gratefulness and my eyes with sweet tears of happiness. I’ve come a long way to this point. I’ve lost many things on my journey to become a better Muslimah, and I still have a long way ahead of me which will last for eternity insha’Allah. I can’t even begin to tell you how sad I used to feel. I thought my life has no meaning. That’s why this feels so amazing.
I’ve lost many friends just because I’m a Muslim now, but I have also got truly amazing friends. Alhamdulillah.
I’ve lost my Dad. We never had the time to settle our fight about me being a Muslim. But I also heard the first time in my life him saying, ”I love you and I’m so proud of you. Me and your Mom wish to have your courage to follow your own path.” Alhamdulillah.
I’ve felt horrible pain, but I’ve also felt the most amazing kind of feelings. Alhamdulillah.
I used to be restless, but now I’ve found peace within myself. Alhamdulillah.
I used to feel lonely, but not anymore for I have Him no matter what. Alhamdulillah.
I used to feel sad all the time, but now I have a way to deal with those negative feelings. Alhamdulillah.
I used to hate everything about me, but now I’m rather happy just the way I am. Alhamdulillah.
I used to be so insecure, but now I’m confident. Alhamdulillah.
I used to cry for sadness, but now I cry for happiness. Alhamdulillah.
I understand that my life is not perfect, but it could be much worse. Alhamdulillah.
Now my deepest wish is to help all those young girls who are suffering from the same feelings. And insha’Allah I will.
Never lose your hope, even in bad conditions.
Ya Allah, thank you for being there when nobody else was.
** Alhamdulillah = ”praise be to Allah”